Anonymous : Are you both excited for the futur trip to Lebanon?
I can only speak for myself, but I think it hasn’t quite hit me yet. I’m pretty nervous about it all, I feel this great amount of pressure to produce photographic masterpieces, which seems to be holding me back from being excited.
But I’m coming to realization that I can only do what I can do, and I shouldn’t try to fake anything else.
Woah, it feels surreal that my Lebanon trip is literally around the corner, a month away. Time is going by way too fast now as I try and plan it.
September 15th we head to Beirut, and October 8th we head back to Toronto.
This will be a trip to remember forever.
I feel this great amount of pressure to produce master pieces. But I have decided to just do what I do best, And to not stress over the whole project. Worst comes to worst. The film turns out blank, and I come back with only memories and a handful of digital photographs.
Best case scenario, I get 100’s of photos and produce a pretty sweet show!
Current mission is to get my vaccines done, and wait patiently for 700$ worth of film to arrive at my work’s door step.
More updates coming soon.
Working on not trying to care as much when painting.
I saw this photo at the end of a David Bowie exhibition a few months ago and thought it was a perfect shot. It definitely looks like this guy has done and seen some crazy stuff in his lifetime.
I had an epiphany yesterday. I don’t think I ever fully understood the true idea of being in control. I have been stressing over other people and things I can’t control.
I can choose what I want to laugh at, or what I want to be angry about. What and who I want to fill my day with. What types of things I choose to be interested in. Whether I want to get up at 2am or 3 pm. If I want to eat a bowl of rice or a salad. If I want to spend two hours watching reality t.v or a documentary on giraffes. I can choose if I want to spend 10 mins writing this or 5 hrs. That I am in complete control over nobody but myself.